I thought of God as more like one’s conscience.
It was the lack of spiritual knowledge that I attributed to, “what will happen will happen”, not thinking one way or the other that God had anything to do with the situation… by no means disrespecting God ..… I just accepted the inevitable.
There was a time when I was ashamed at not having read or studied the Bible and consequently shied away from any related conversations about God or religion.
Back then “by the grace of God” was an expression I’d heard and used without giving the phrase much thought … but that “grace” continues to nurture me even when I don’t recognize it right away.
When my oldest was in turmoil .. moody and unsettled, counseling didn’t help, it was a difficult period but we lived through those times with that same “grace”, the grace of God.
Now I begin to see how the right paths were chosen for me to guide my sons .
Another expression, “let go and let God”, is one I am reflecting back to when I “let go and let God” without realizing it as that.
My marriage was failing, unsuccessful attempts were made to salvage it but we had three young sons who could not be raised under such turmoil …
Did I pray in my mind … silently ??… or at all? God knows (and that is not just an expression either… anymore).
It is obvious to me now that when I “let go” , He searched my heart …and set me in the right direction.
I am happy to be learning the word .. even with the confusion of comprehending and processing so much information.
I am grateful for the teachings, discussion and studies with the Purpose Driven Women of Zion and their patience in allowing me to ask questions I once shied away from and thereby learn the true meaning of God’s words and how we use them to guide our lives.
I am more than grateful to know that God already knows the results and continues to “cover” my “potholes of life” with His grace.
I have come to realize just how much I have been Showered by God ..
Using one of these gifts, I created this quilt ...
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